Wednesday, February 27, 2008

Character Sketch - Paranoid Delusions/Delusion Projection

The key is that he does not know what is real and what is not, and has recently taken to believing that he is the only real thing. In essence, he is the sole deity of his own universe, and is thus, the most important person in that universe. Thus, he also believes himself the most important person, as if he dies, his world dies with him. The man knows that the delusions sometimes fight back, but thinks of it as just himself, or can't really understand what's going on.

Son of a biologist/atheist, strong proponent for evolution. He was taught to always question, to never take for granted things. Given that he was raised with a strong anti-religion slant, that he's now starting to feel like a god is causing a deep rift within himself, as the person he was and the person he is becoming are in constant struggle. He's not sure when it first started manifesting, because he's not entirely in belief that much of the world he lives in is unreal. Nonetheless, his ability to perceive is still quite impressive, as he'll note some small detail and be able to extrapolate from it. Unfortunately, much of his perceptions are of things not really there.

Somewhat withdrawn and constantly on guard, there are few things he trusts. Strong sources of light and dark, he is drawn to, because he knows for sure, for sure, these are things that he won't dream up (he is wrong). He also likes eating, another thing that can reveal whether or not something is real. Eating a delusion will just result in him eating nothing. The man has become very overweight due to this. He cannot stand this, and is only going along with the group because of the proposed cure. Of course, he's not entirely sure if this cure even exists, and feels they may just be using him, as everyone else is. Then again, this is a chance he's got to take, even if it turns out to justify his constant fear that it's not all delusions, and that it's all real.

The only person he trusts, Sheila, is his long-time partner, but not wife, as he refuses to get married and open himself up. Sheila knows him better than he knows himself. She'll go away after they fight, which is fairly often, but will always return after a few days. He's come to grips with the cooling off period, and is OK with that. She's his only friend, only confidant, and just another piece of his imagination. His belief in Sheila is unshakable, until she disappears before his eyes if/when he takes the drug.

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